Little more upbeat today....

I'm a little more upbeat today.  I am not sure what yesterday was all about except that this whole thing scares the crap out of me.  Don't get me wrong, I want the surgery - I want to be healthy, that is my number one goal, and I am tired of being fat.  It is just that I have always identified as a FAT PERSON rather than as a PERSON WHO IS FAT.  The fat came before the person.  So if the fat is not the person, who is the person?  I think perhaps it is a good thing that the surgery is in 6 weeks like when I had my knee surgery.  I think it is a good thing to have time to put the idea of FAT behind me.  I found another blog about WLS - specifically about living after WLS.  She quoted an article called "2009 - Your Time to Shine" by someone named Kaye Bailey.  Part of the article said:

In this course of his studies on evolution Charles Darwin discovered that in sea turtles it is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor is it the most intelligent of the species that survive. The survivors are those most responsive to change. As weight loss surgery patients we have affected a major change on our bodies, our species. I consider that we caused a voluntary acceleration of evolution and because of this we must embrace and accept change with great enthusiasm. We don't have to be the strongest or most intelligent, we just simply have to move forward accepting this change and find what works.

Our surgeons have skillfully changed us physically. But the more difficult change comes from within. Within our minds, our hearts, and yes, our spiritual beings. When we embrace inner change our physical being will follow.

As part of embracing change I ask you to be kind to yourself. Be kind to yourself. This is a really important part of the 5 Day Pouch Test andLivingAfterWLS. Often people recovering from morbid obesity (myself included) put ourselves last on the priority list. Anything else feels selfish and we are giving people, right? Wrong. We cannot give fully of ourselves until we are healthy inside and out. And remember, you are never alone in this journey. 

Time for me to embrace change.  Time for me to be kind to myself.  Today is Mother's Day.  Today I am going to do something that is just for me.  

In case you want to read the blog where the quote came from, the URL is http://livingafterwls.blogspot.com/